Post by Frenchie Savage on Oct 1, 2009 10:23:42 GMT
He’d been on his way home particularly late that evening; it was the opening night of Equus, a rather brilliantly-choreographed ballet interpretation of the deeply psychological drama of the same name, and as the leading character of Allen, Frenchie had been much held-over with the tasks of answering questions and posing for pictures and otherwise engaging in things that he didn’t really like to do. On the other hand, he had been elated with success of production, and had, upon hearing the much expected ringtone designated to his friend in America, been answered spilling with joy. This had changed within seconds though. Dino hadn’t called to congratulate him at all; he had been in tears, frightened and confused and in a great deal of pain, and bearing the sort of news that nobody ever wanted to hear about anybody, let alone about a good friend.
Frenchie had sat down where he had been standing –at the base of an age-old sycamore tree- numb with shock, and unable to do anything more brilliant than to listen to what his friend’s hysterics and to mumble the stupidest things in reply. It wasn’t for some time later that his mind cleared and he was able to counsel Dino more intelligently. It was difficult – Dins was scared well out of his wits, and Frenchie could only project so much reassurance when hardly knew what to do himself – and it took hours, and by the time it was over, Frenchie’s face was wet with quietly-shed tears. Without any real form of goodbye, Frenchie hung up the phone.
He folded it shut as tenderly as if it were a precious love note, and tucked it away into his pocket. Then he stared at the stars. Then he started to shake. He tore his hands across his tear-streaked face and through his hair, and sat sobbing silently beneath old sycamore for a very long time, wracking his mind for reasons –logical and spiritual alike- for what had happened, poring over every last detail of the past few hours’ conversation in hope of finding some enlightenment as to what he could have done and what he aught to do. The answer was, of course, very simple. I should have been there, he thought. He and Dino existed to keep each other out of trouble, and even if he hadn’t succeeded at that, he should have been there by his friends’ side afterwards –right now, that was- to support him. He felt as helpless as an infant, and that horrified him as much as the events that had transpired as a result.
It wasn’t long before he grew very restless indeed and stood up, putting his shoulder into the tree for a moment as he weighed the values of either running headlong through the woods until he was too tired to be upset or running to town to get pissed beyond caring. Really, all he wanted to do right now was bash his head against something—and he didn’t realize until it was much too late how stupid it was to actually do so. But it was at least a hundred times more pleasant as Frenchie had imagined it; a very dull and distant paint overwhelmed by a magnificent crashing sensation and the sudden presence of void. For a very brief and very blissful moment, Frenchie was aware of nothing, until the ringing in his head called him back to his place standing in front of a tree in the gardens.
Absently, he placed his fingers in the stream of blood that was making its way down his forehead, disrupting its flow as it dripped down his face to join his tears. For the moment, the situation overseas was forgotten, and Frenchie stared at the tree with an expression as shocked and offended as a posh girl who has just been slapped. He might even have gotten angry at it for having damaged him so, but just as Frenchie moved to retaliate against tree, it blurred away like a superhero on the move, and Frenchie found himself laying-face down mud. Carefully, head spinning, he pushed himself to hands and knees, rubbing gingerly at the wrong side of his head as he tried to figure out what had just happened to him. Within moments, it became very difficult indeed to hold himself up, even on all fours. Swaying with vertigo, he moved to put himself into a sitting position, but for some reason ended up doing some sort of weird diagonal aerial twist instead, landing on his shoulder and coming to rest with his back with his legs twisted awkwardly to his side.
At that point, Frenchie found that he was no longer so much interested in knowing what the hell was going on as he was with knowing where Dino was when he was supposed to be bailing Frenchie out of scary situations. The unfortunate bit was that he really didn’t want to know. He put his hands over his face and shut his eyes, and began slurring a mantra:
“He’s okay. He’s okay. He’s okay. He’s okay. He’s okay….”
Ooc- That was a mile-long slick of highly-ineloquent shit, and you have my apologies for it. I’ll do better next time, I promise!
Frenchie had sat down where he had been standing –at the base of an age-old sycamore tree- numb with shock, and unable to do anything more brilliant than to listen to what his friend’s hysterics and to mumble the stupidest things in reply. It wasn’t for some time later that his mind cleared and he was able to counsel Dino more intelligently. It was difficult – Dins was scared well out of his wits, and Frenchie could only project so much reassurance when hardly knew what to do himself – and it took hours, and by the time it was over, Frenchie’s face was wet with quietly-shed tears. Without any real form of goodbye, Frenchie hung up the phone.
He folded it shut as tenderly as if it were a precious love note, and tucked it away into his pocket. Then he stared at the stars. Then he started to shake. He tore his hands across his tear-streaked face and through his hair, and sat sobbing silently beneath old sycamore for a very long time, wracking his mind for reasons –logical and spiritual alike- for what had happened, poring over every last detail of the past few hours’ conversation in hope of finding some enlightenment as to what he could have done and what he aught to do. The answer was, of course, very simple. I should have been there, he thought. He and Dino existed to keep each other out of trouble, and even if he hadn’t succeeded at that, he should have been there by his friends’ side afterwards –right now, that was- to support him. He felt as helpless as an infant, and that horrified him as much as the events that had transpired as a result.
It wasn’t long before he grew very restless indeed and stood up, putting his shoulder into the tree for a moment as he weighed the values of either running headlong through the woods until he was too tired to be upset or running to town to get pissed beyond caring. Really, all he wanted to do right now was bash his head against something—and he didn’t realize until it was much too late how stupid it was to actually do so. But it was at least a hundred times more pleasant as Frenchie had imagined it; a very dull and distant paint overwhelmed by a magnificent crashing sensation and the sudden presence of void. For a very brief and very blissful moment, Frenchie was aware of nothing, until the ringing in his head called him back to his place standing in front of a tree in the gardens.
Absently, he placed his fingers in the stream of blood that was making its way down his forehead, disrupting its flow as it dripped down his face to join his tears. For the moment, the situation overseas was forgotten, and Frenchie stared at the tree with an expression as shocked and offended as a posh girl who has just been slapped. He might even have gotten angry at it for having damaged him so, but just as Frenchie moved to retaliate against tree, it blurred away like a superhero on the move, and Frenchie found himself laying-face down mud. Carefully, head spinning, he pushed himself to hands and knees, rubbing gingerly at the wrong side of his head as he tried to figure out what had just happened to him. Within moments, it became very difficult indeed to hold himself up, even on all fours. Swaying with vertigo, he moved to put himself into a sitting position, but for some reason ended up doing some sort of weird diagonal aerial twist instead, landing on his shoulder and coming to rest with his back with his legs twisted awkwardly to his side.
At that point, Frenchie found that he was no longer so much interested in knowing what the hell was going on as he was with knowing where Dino was when he was supposed to be bailing Frenchie out of scary situations. The unfortunate bit was that he really didn’t want to know. He put his hands over his face and shut his eyes, and began slurring a mantra:
“He’s okay. He’s okay. He’s okay. He’s okay. He’s okay….”
Ooc- That was a mile-long slick of highly-ineloquent shit, and you have my apologies for it. I’ll do better next time, I promise!